Dear little me.

Dear Nikita Wakefield
Age 5
2004

Hello, here is some advice.

• Never trust anyone they will hurt you, or worse. Leave.
• Books are comforting and will always listen
• Don't listen to the counsellors they will try and change you please don't listen.

And last of all, you will get bullied and beaten, be yourself don't put on make up, don't binge eat or self harm. This is a letter to inform you of your future. You're best friends from kinder garden will be the ones ruining you're life in Intermediate they will abuse you, use and worse. I am writing this to warn you about you're future and this may not mean much but at the age of 15 you will want to end it all. But you won't. 

Here are some rules that WILL help, I promise.

• Smile, it helps even if it is a fake one
• If someone asks what is wrong, don't lie it might work but then it gets worse.
• Friends are the definition of lies and betrayal.
• Alone is what you will have, and it WON'T protect you.

In 2012 you will be in hospital for sugary and you're parents will worry but they mean it when they say they love you. You will be like a vampire, white as fuck sore as fuck. But the only thing you will worry about is if it will kill you, and at that point you pray it does, it won't you will live and will have to put up with the same stuff. 

Goodluck, 
Nikita Wakefield
Age 14
2014


Photos of little me and me now!

                                          2012 Intermediate Leavers Dinner - 3 weeks Out of hospital

                                          Yes little me you will think i am made, but she
                                           will be the only one who truly cares and she will
                                          be your best friend.

P.S Sorry readers in a sad mood so just thought I should rant off with a letter to me.

-Nikita